when people do care about appearances

first thing first, dude, people dont look at your jokes. people dont look how talkative you are. people dont look at your almighty words. people dont look how good you play. people dont look how sexy your body. people dont look how intelligence you are. people dont look how brave you was. people dont look how powerful you are. thou, people do care so much bout appearances/looks. modern society can be so mean, that if you're standing right next to the person that are have beautiful looks more than you are, i'm sorry to say, the questions will not be ask to you but the person beside you. this is what we call a cruel world. we just hve to accept it. different people hve different expectations and standards, it just depends on who you're talking to ! 

“How things look on the outside of us depends on how things are on the inside of us.” 
Henry Ward Beecher 

if a person was born ugly, but they presented themselves neatly and kindly, then that's what i think is worth admiring.

if a person was born pretty, but they presented themselves trashy and cheap, that ain't beautiful at all.

It's nice to hear someone who isn't totally obsessed with perfect good looking. just dont let anyone make you feel bad bout your looks, just be happy who you are :) :)

culture clash !

aiyaaak ! culture clash ? 

to be one of the exBUDAKSEKOLAHAGAMA is quite tough i can say..the person who standing right next to you will never understand because they are not in your shoes. i had once asked my friend (in palam of course)  **just to try to test which level i am now** 

#ehemehem, kau rasa, aku nie ada gaya budak sekolah agama tak ?#

#tak . ( directly )#

# sikit pun takdak ka?#

#entahler, kenapa kau budak sekolah agama ker#

#hmm . . . #

end of conversation

i think bout the conversation all over again. thinking. thinking. thinking. what a pityy person i am. kau hidup belajar kat sekolah agama tp orang tak tau pun kau sekolah agama. apa kes ? shame on you ! nampakk ngaaatt . . . entohlerr. from that point of accident, i keep an ambition to change to a better person everyday. even it is very hard, as long as you keep it as your goal, then you will slowly adjust the steps. . . people, show yourself, the way you have been raising into, what you get from what you have learned. if not, other people will look at you differently. *remind for myself *

this is not the main point of the story, it is not related to my title post. actually, i hve an experience to share with . . .

i was playing basketball, wearing long sleeve t-shirt with tracksuit and hijab (tudung bawal) alaa, macam kau kau selalu pakai !  haish susah benorr na explain. play. play. play. it's 7 p.m and were resting and get ready to go back. they were talking blablablabla.. and then reach the tudung story, then one of them was like , 'haa nehh alina ih sekolah taayah. ustazah. tapi ta pakai tudung labuh pungg ! ' ( sambil tangan menghala ke tudung aku )

jengjengjeng. panas tak ?

perghh , wey ayat kau tuh ta boleh kurang ajar lagi kerr ?!

first time i been hit by this thing, and you know what i replied ..?

weyy kau, tudung labuh , bukan budak sekolah agama je kene pakai, tapi semua perempuan kene pakai. kau. kau. kau. semua orang kene pakai nak tutup aurat. takde fatwa yang kata hanya budak sekolah agama je yg kene pakai tudung labuh. 

then aku meninggalkan tempat itu dengan hati yang merekah tinggai nak pecahh !

sorry wey, aku mintak maaf aku tak tahan sangat nak marah.

so, moral of the story, wahai wanita sekalian alam, jgn ckp mcm tu. tak baik tau. setiap manusia tuh Allah berikan hidayah cume orang itu masih belum menerima dgn sepenuhnyaa lagi. mungkin dye dah ada niat untuk berubah, tapi belum lagi kan. . . 

remeber the quote saying, When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself..

turning back the time . . .

if i could turn back the time, i dont want ot go back ! haha ^^  *never ever repeat spm and asasi okey*  i've finished my asasi and now my junior keep shooting me, how's the life of being a 'u' student (?) . i'm just like whhuuuuttuutt ?? my stupidest answer ; 'emm bole laa.' (!) =. .=  .  hey you, living as an asasi student is not like living like a DIPLOMADEGREE student. my lecturer used to lazer us, dont dream as if you're a university student. not at all ok ?why ? why ? why ? walopon idop di dalam satu pagar yg same. i'm gonna tell you why, asasi's life is not what you think you can keep dreamin and dreamin and dreamingg. in fact, you will not get one. timetable was very packed. 24/7 men. aigoo. not that all, assignment yg tinggi mengalahkan gunung everest. pastu kau pun akan takdok mase nak enjoy weekend. then you'll ended up staring at your book. #lagilagidudukcerukdunie# . haish. nak wat gano err..though, i felt like it is much easier than my previous examination espiem. i dont know why. maybe it just because lesser subject in asasi.

thou, it just fun to think that you have completed another level and waiting for the next to be accomplished . . . .

all in all , do not pray for an easy life. pray to be strong pals :)